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hello.

2008-01-02T17:36:00.000+08:00

You will now be redirected to my new blog.

Have a nice day and thanks for dropping by!

timing.

2007-12-26T06:55:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all!

I must admit that I've been really neglecting my blog (wth!, me?!) which is very much unlike me. Anyways, I am attempting to be on track right this moment now that I have an internet access at home (I don't really like updating my blog on internet cafes! you know what I mean.... haha!)

What is with timing?

Timing is essential for all of us human beings (ermm, like making decisions). Good timing means it was meant to be; Bad timing, oh well try again later, there'll be other opportunities to come.

I'm definitely not ranting here, a share of sentiments I must say :)

I respect.
I obey and I know they have their best interests at heart.

11/12

2007-12-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

it's been three months since i last blogged... whew, time flies so fast and looook my place is covered with dust hahaha ;p

anyways, I was busy because of school and everything that happens in between.
Single, for sure! :)
and
I have to change my way of writing here....

ciao!

g'day!

2007-10-21T15:26:00.000+08:00

Augh. My... what a drab!

It's been awhile right? I've had so many realizations (about life) once again... I have to medyo turn down someone because I'm not in the position to get into a relationship and it's toooo eaaarllly, I don't even know the person yet. All. I. want. is. friendship.

Yes, there are many crushes but I have someone whom I admire so much and motivates me to do better things :)

I have a lot of matters to accomplish first. It is to be there for those around me always and also I'm not closing my doors to others as well, it's just that... I'm taking my time!

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How sad, the subbers of my über-favorite-über-love Saiunkoku Monogatari episode 7, season/episode 2 isn't done yet. But I'm wholeheartedly thankful to the über-awesome group FLC and Sweet Secret Fansubs (they're taking turns for subbing every episode; the FLC is subbing the even episodes & Sweet Secret will be doing the odd eps) for subbing the aforesaid and unlicensed anime ^^

you mean a lot to me

2007-10-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

you make me smile
you make me wonderful
you motivated me towards so many matters
you're one of the persons who took me closer to Him
you bring out the best in me...

and I guess it is best for me stay this way...

obscurely gazing from afar
whispering thoughts of you to myself
wishing you well while you're out of sight

still I don't know why if this is all certain
I don't know, nobody knows what's going to happen...
it's unknown

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Yay! I sense that I might have a busy week ahead! Tuesdays and Thursdays in school, Thursday another appointment with my EENT..blabla--- I don't know! I shouldn't be fretting or something. So, to de-stress I want to share a couple of things I would ♥ to do someday:

1. Travel ---- yes, I would love to travel and take so many breath taking photos and notes (containing my thoughts regarding the unforgettable experience); collect catchy souvenirs and enjoy it!

2. I want to take voice lessons.

3. I want to really learn more how to bake and cook.

This time, I'm focused on my studies. Hopefully, this is my senior year in high school! Yeah! Break Leg!!

oh, yeah.. it's me..

2007-10-01T01:26:00.000+08:00

"What if you waited for your special someone your whole life and later on learn that no one is waiting for you?... True love is worth taking chances for. Sometimes you don't know why things work out.. They just do." - a line from the movie, The Lakehouse

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I know I should be dozing off now but I'm soo in the mood to blog ('cause, really it was eons ago when I last wrote something in this blog of mine).
The quote above? Yeah, I was browsing a quote whatever site and read this... and whenever I watch the DVD of the movie-- I sigh.. and talk to myself and realized that what the character just said is so true.. it's fact (for me, my opinion).. call me sloppy but the matter moves me (I've witnessed a lot of relationships or the such, like this before.. so, I just know)

Gosh, it's late and I have some reviewing to catch up... school's keeping me busy that's why I'm somewhat not-so-active to the blogosphere nowadays. I hope all of you my dearies are doing fine!

xxoo

short follow up.

2007-08-27T11:24:00.000+08:00

"balloons look good from on the ground...
I fear with pins and needles around we may fall then stumble upon a carousel
it could take us anywhere..."

know what I miss? I miss blogging

I BADLY MISS EVERYTHING :'( {come on stop being a cry baby now, eh??}

8/13

2007-08-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

Busy. Kind of sad and lonely. Hopeful...

Life has it's own unexpected twist and turns. It may give you happiness, pain and gain new experiences and knowledge... and all I do is turn to Him... because I know He's the right one to, whenever it comes (it always come and will never go) We all have our own crosses to bear... and I just can't help it but feel low... I'm getting all teary-eyed now while I'm typing this post... There are so many thoughts running in to my mind, those what-ifs and should have done that, should have listen to blabla/this so-called instinct of mine (I sometimes consider them as special messages, I'm weird I know!).. There's no choice but to endure this and hold on tight.

Now that I breathe this all out (what the?) it's somewhat a relief...
Last week was crazy and confusing.. but I sort of love the rain... I felt that the rain sympathizes with me and tells me that He's listening... right now it kind of made me think if 'God is in the rain...' --- a line Evey Hammond said in the movie V for Vendetta...

I have a long test tomorrow and I'm so sleepy (I lack of sleep for days!) and I'm lazy to study! (I know I shouldn't act like this!) Pray to God everything will be alright!

God bless to everyone!

hmphf....

2007-08-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

How come I've neglected this place? I thought I would put out fresh daily rantings and random-ness here?? Well, we can't always have/do what we want to..

Oh well...

I gotta change the layout! it's an eye sore..

i need time to...

2007-07-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

stop
and
think
...

feel
and
cherish
and then
realize
what's going on
with my life...

Pray.
Live.
Love.
Hope.
and
have more
FAITH...

and I forgot something:
COURAGE.

I'm not heartbroken--- I guess, I'm just in neutral.
I just want to re-think and refresh my mind to clear some things/issues up...
I want positivity!
I want more better things to come... more blessings to share...

I place it all these to You... my Savior.. my God...

after three weeks...

2007-07-15T18:00:00.000+08:00

of my 'asthma-come-back' I'm finally well... I can now breathe normally without hearing my wheezing bands sweet music and I'm not breathless that much. Know what? I think aside from eating sweets the past months is that my asthma triggered because of stress and anxiety. I have been thinking too much and doing some housework and all the commuting (note: usok) and cab rides (sometimes the taxi's dusty sa likuran, diba?) when going out (our auto's not available to use as of the moment.) and yes, the sleepless nights.. (ayoko nang mapuyat!)

Sigh.. I promise myself that I'll really really do better! (Besides, this is all for my sake, right?)

strike sayo:
~~puyat, hot choco, sweets, junk foods, usok ng yosi ng kasama ko, usok ng sasakyan, kakaisip ng kung anu-ano, pagpapagod...~~

adieu!
come back next time (kung may next time pa)

getting in to indie.

2007-07-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

Nothing. I just want a new flavor. First, Spoon (what is playing on the background right now is their track titled 'the delicate place' ) then the others started to haunt me 1x1. I also lurve The Killers and Cat Power. Wow, I never thought that my taste in music will eventually change. Before I'm just fixed into r&b and uhm, pop. We'll that was so way back then, pal. Now I love listening to alternative, classical... whatever my ear drums desire to hear! yeah!!!

I kinda have my time off reading manga's and streaming online videos. I want to blog :) and get well-- I want my asthma to run away from me! I want my life back!!!! I'm going to edit this post later.

Faith. Hope. Love.

2007-07-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

These three. Makes me move on and inspire my soul and this special prayer from St. Teresa of Avila.. I love this one, because whenever I'm feeling not-so-well this one is always on my mind:

Let nothing trouble you,
let nothing frighten you.
All things are passing;
God never changes.
Patience obtains all things.
He who possesses God lacks nothing:
God alone suffices.

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Heeehee.. I'm currently busying myself reading Goong (manhwa) I realize that it's very much different than the television series... yes the production is great (and so is the cast) but the story they kinda change it a bit. I'm on Volume 11-- where Chae-Gyeong and Shin finished doing the live television interview and the girl just mentioned divorce and then, Shin professed his love for her on air and does some covering for the both of them and then after, he was kinda humiliated and most of all disappointed for what Chae-Gyeong did (she followed Yul's so-called-'advice'). This volume kinda make my asthma worse---it's very nerve-racking! and yes my asthma is back--- and it's out of timing, I have to report back to school tomorrow afternoon and I'm praying that I can bear it... well yeah! I CAN DO it! I have to click 'publish post' now 'cause I have to do some catching up on reading Goong. Have a nice day and take care! xxoo

the blurry exterior.

2007-06-26T00:57:00.000+08:00

I find you’re always alone my one
I find you’re feelings well kept inside your soul, it was very well obscured
I know you’re waiting for the right time, but when do you think that kind certainty will come? Everything happens for a reason they say and it gets confusing to you by now, eh? But if you’ll take courage and hold on to your faith in the end you will know what the reason behind all of this is. As of now all you can see a blurry exterior, so what if when you have already passed on to that phase? What may possibly be the outcome??? What could it be? Isn’t it somewhat interesting? It’s out of your league, right? Exploring the unknown? Come on; try to push yourself a bit to new experiences. Fun and clean experiences, I say. It’ll be worth the try and a good self-improvement. Take courage, have faith! This is what life is all about.

Hello. Here I am, updating and kind of loss in words. I'm fancying myself reading manga's lately so basically I'm 'abandoning my blog' [a.k.a. not updating frequently, unlike before]. I'll update much more better next time. I'm gonna bloghop, now.

I got tagged, I got tagged...

2007-06-22T16:22:00.000+08:00

RULES

Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

1. I secretly love munching Black Chocolate while drinking green tea (hot) or the Lipton Japanese Green Tea beverage. I'm addicted to it... actually.

2. I'm very obsessed with how my hair smells and looks...

3. I enjoy doing household chores and the like. Hindi pampa-boring, yung mga ganun ba?

4. I don't like seeing (and feeling) our sala floor rough, dirty & yucky. I like clean things, neat things... I literally don't want to see mess right before my eyes!!!

5. I'm always nakatalukbong when I sleep. That's what my parents say when they see me sleeping. Pero bakit ganun? Di ko alam na nakatalukbong pala ako pagnatutulog...

6. I like it kapag tahimik ang house namin (and minsan din, gusto ko rin kapag mag-isa lang ako sa bahay.... siguro wala masyadong nagkakalat ehehe..)

7. I can't sleep without my beary pillow & kumot.

8. I'm low-blood & has asthma. People don't really know about it. Except my family.

9. I don't really like sleeping late but I do it when I want to... pero minsan na lang yun.

10. I used to enjoy creating web designing but now, I'm kinda lazy doing one.

11. I want to be an author!

12. I try to say thank you as much as possible to a person. I kind of think of it as a simple way to thank God for all the blessings that I receive everyday... it's just a simple gesture that I do to show how grateful I am to Him. Even though there are days na hindi rin naman ako nakakapag-thank you sa ibang taong nakapaligid sa akin.

13. I love shrimps, milk fish, tuna.... even though I'm not allowed to eat it because I'm allergic to seafoods. Pero di naman pwedeng habang buhay ganun diba?

14. I love Fitnesse breakfast cereal, not "because it can help you achieve the body that you want" but I just love na nakakabusog siya kagad di kagaya ng ibang mga breakfast cereals, and yung crunchiness niya & yung taste... love it!!!!! and siyempre yung milk :) Minsan din nga kahit hindi umaga ay kumakain ako nito!

15. I can't think about what I'm going to fill in this place anymore... I ran out of ideas(?) Ermmm, did those things that I mentioned above weird???

sharing.

2007-06-19T12:17:00.000+08:00

I got this leaflet containing a Prayer to St. Therese when I accompanied my mom on a meeting last week. It's lovely and I would love to share this to all of you.

ehe... and I scanned it

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I was so happy yesterday because I saw my favorite friend feline! I call him Dugyot here's a snappy of him which I took with my camera phone.

I missed him so much! and I'm so happy and giddy to see him kahapon!

I've got cd's to burn today! I'm going to share the track listing's when I'm finished compiling them. Have a nice day!

Alone again.

2007-06-14T13:18:00.000+08:00

I'm somewhat used to being alone with myself lately. I can say that I'm becoming an introvert, but I know I shouldn't say that because I haven't really confirmed it myself. It doesn't really mean that whenever you're alone you're officially an introvert, right?

So to be sure.. let's check what the introvert really means [even though I know about it already, I'll still double-check it just so to make sure]

From DICTIONARY (answers.com) : in·tro·vert
tr.v., -vert·ed, -vert·ing, -verts.
To turn or direct inward.
Psychology. To concentrate (one's interests) upon oneself.
Medicine. To turn (a tubular organ or part) inward upon itself.
n. (ĭn'trə-vûrt')
Psychology. An introverted person.
Medicine. An anatomical structure that is capable of being introverted.
[INTRO– + Latin vertere, to turn.]
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From SCIENCE DICTIONARY: introvert (in-truh-vurt)

A term introduced by the psychologist Carl Jung to describe a person whose motives and actions are directed inward. Introverts tend to be preoccupied with their own thoughts and feelings and minimize their contact with other people.

What the? So yeah. I guess I can call myself a wee-bit of an introv... and this I say doesn't also mean I'm a snob or what. It's just that I currently don't have a stable circle of friends and I was always with family and I am grateful about it, I have no complaints whatsoever. Because before I was so absorbed with school and my friends and I'm somewhat distanced from my parents. Now that I am on a prolonged vacation, I come to get to know more about God, myself, my soul, my family and my siblings.... I'm happy.

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Good heavens, last Tuesday (which was June 12 INDEPENDENCE DAY) was the most awful traffic ~~I've~~ they've (the motor drivers) ever experienced! You'll know what I'm talking about if ever you were in Manila that day! All the cab drivers were so allergic when they hear the word Manila.

hint: the time.

2007-06-08T05:47:00.000+08:00

I should be heading back to my bed now, I shouldn't have been "greedy" in watching Ouran High School Host Club, but.... every episode-- just keeps getting better [sorry, if I sound like an elementary school here. Can't help it]

BUT.

Asides from being on "addict-mode" , I couldn't also sleep for no apparent reason and I took this chance to write a short post...

GOSH. I think my eyes are about to pop... [exaggerating]

well.

Be right back, me-needs-some-shut-eye even though it's tooooo late to catch up on my sleep.

pardon me for the poor grammar and if I'm a bit confusing....

a random note for myself.

2007-06-03T19:00:00.000+08:00

Love can wait when it is confirmed that what one's feeling is true and certain and have both profoundly understand one's shortcomings. As for me, I'm not looking nor waiting about the latter. I am just living my life to the fullest and open for more wonderful people to come in to my life. I've been wallowing to much with myself and have resolved not to delve into this more. I should open new path ways so that I could be a better person; I should be more courageous and learn to be independent because I am not going to be forever young. In short I should somewhat come out of my comfort zone. I wrote this post as note to myself so that whenever this topic slips off to my mind, I will simply browse through my archives and read this once more (if ever I didn't delete this blog of mine). I pray that I have the guts to start this...

... and uhm, I have to remind myself that I should at least reduce my chocolate intake. I'm overdosed. HAHAHA....

I...

2007-05-31T09:07:00.000+08:00

badly need some restful sleep.

525

2007-05-25T13:14:00.000+08:00

"I've been soul searching
Praying that I will not miss something
Trying to relieve the past that has already come to an end but can still feel some quite agitation
Knowing it'll be vanished soon...
The words have been spoken
Actions mistaken
Tears already fallen
Smiles already showed
But the past can never be altered
Make every second precious
Make every thing sincere
because 'life is what you make it' "

It has been a long time since I tried to attempt to write a short poem and then now I was assured to make one-- even though I don't know how it happened, it just suddenly came through me, through my mind. Such emotions swirled and had come to mix.. and then this it. School year's going to start and the last weekend of summer's coming! I'm wishing all of you the best & God's love and guidance always! As for me, I'm just going to do my "wait and see" and pray and do my best!

I'm helping my younger brother to better his cursive writing! hehe ... I'm still not finished typing it because I'm doing other things as well

hello! world!

2007-05-16T19:17:00.000+08:00

I was about to open my new wordpress blog-- but I changed my mind. I think I might settle down for long with blogger because the school year's coming up and I'm going to be effing busy! (ACTUALLY, I'm a busy bee right now.. hehe) PROMISE! if not then I'll look up for a brand new host :)

I was inactive with the blogosphere 'cause I just want to take a breather for awhile-- you know just to ponder & be away from the net... it's great to be back again. Right, I just finished my normal routine: friendster, email, blog hopping, blogging, surfing-- and reading some juicy goss (ehehe) ; plus my new addiction (and addition to the routine): anime vids! and random clips oooh.. I enjoy and looking forward to other different series'. I'ma enjoy the last weeks of summer!

get away.

2007-04-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

Every day of this month seems to be in slow motion for me... How's everyone doing? I want to get out of this place!!! I want a change of atmosphere/environment... a place where I can relax and chill... Baguio! hahaha... I'm wishing to be there, right this moment... and forget the city life for a while. Ang init na! salamat sa lumalalang Global Warming na nagawa rin nating nakatira dito sa Earth... sana mapangalagaan pa natin ito habang hindi pa huli ang lahat....

Yan lang muna. Can't seem to think of anything to blog about... sa ngayon

God bless all!

la belle vie

2007-04-22T11:33:00.000+08:00

This past days I keep myself amused by watching music videos and clips (internet) and blog hopping and doing some research since our plans for going out of town will be this week -- well actually there has been no official date set... but I'm soooo excited! I pray na matuloy na ito! Oh man, this past few weeks has been a little rough and taught me some new things (about life)... and I also pray that I'll keep all these by heart. I won't share the full details 'cause I think it'll be too personal I hope you guys could understand that and I'll be very grateful of course to you and most of all God who has been very good to me (and my famille) and I am just the stubborn one ....

Just a thought:
All I can say is that every morning we wake up -- we always, always had the chance to make a difference -- to be good, to change for the better, to love dearly those who are near to us, to learn something new. It's not too late...

it's all about love.

2007-04-19T15:45:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah love! Love can make you do lots of things.. things even you don't have a single clue that you can perform/do it just for the sake of love. It all started because I was curious about what erotomaniac really means. And then it lead to another topic called Unrequited love. Alright never mind about this topic... because some of you may be disturbed about it.

Haha.. Pardon me about that and also the five days absent here in the blogosphere.

Life really is a roller-coaster ride! Oh man, you will go through the loopy-ways, the up-up-and-away-ways... and blah-ways! Oh whatever! I think I don't make sense here... haha! but one thing's for sure! I can deal with this! I will live life to the fullest and be happy-pur-et-beau! and most of all : have faith in the One Above!

life.

2007-04-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

You'll never know what's coming next, so i suggest don't expect too much and never trust your own perceptions.

All of us has tons of unanswered questions, but I guess let it be... perhaps you'll find the answers soon or never in this lifetime.

We make mistakes, but it'll all be left behind with the past and must be forgotten and called 'lesson learned'.

Leave your worries behind 'cause it'll do no good.

We must have full trust in God and forgive other's wrongs.

Time will heal one's deep wounds.

Love will be finally found when the right moment begins.

Patience is very much essential.

and love God most of all and your brother's and sister's as well.

Have a great weekend!

quick, let's move on...

2007-04-13T12:36:00.000+08:00

here I am back to my 'home land' again. The place where I started publicly pouring out my thoughts and sharing tidbits about my life and interests, three years ago. Blogger has been the place where I learned basic HTML and web designing... and I could still recall my thoughts when I saw bunch of crazy codes displayed on the monitor screen... 'Oh my goodness, what's this all about? What am i getting in to?' ! Really! At that time I'm not yet a computer geek, but then I was so curious about web designing and somehow I learned

I guess I have to stick around here again, because blogger's stable and my certain one.

PS. If I linked you on my good-ol wordpress blog and you weren't listed on my links, kindly inform me to link you back okay?

blog is still under construction

note: I'm currently downloading some new tracks from Mandy Moore's new album 'Wild Hope' and I'm currently listening to the song 'Nothing that you are'. Visit M. Moore's official site to listen to it

under construction

2007-03-28T01:10:00.000+08:00

ha! still revamping this fresh place!